Dear Sweet Baby,
I am writing this as either the last love letter, or the first. I feel as though I need to put my heart on the line, so you can see where I’m standing. My hope is that you will walk towards me. My hope is that this will be the first of many love letters to come, the beginning of sweet words and playful love, the beginning of something new, something better than we’ve had in the past, something both of us have dreamed of. A life filled with love and tenderness. A partnership that is open and honest…both your dreams, and my dreams, fulfilled.
I want you to know that you are the man I love…I have loved you from the day we looked in each other’s eyes so many years ago. Meeting you, I was filled with love and passion for the first time in my life…it was more than wanting you, I needed you. I needed you with every breath that I took, my mind crazy with thoughts of you from the start…I lost all control of my heart. I loved you then, just as I love you now. I remember someone asking me how could I stay, waiting as long as I did, and I answered that I had no choice…my heart would be lost without you.
When you touch me now, it is no different than when you touched me then…I feel at home. I feel as if I am complete. I am suddenly whole. I believe with all of my heart that we are soul mates, I believe that our understanding of each other comes from a deeper connection than that of physical love…I feel as though we’ve grown old together in the past, as though we’ve somehow done this before, in another life…connected through time. I feel we are here to help each other, we are each other’s strength. It is you that gives me life and hope, it is you that fills me with joy, it is you that gives me the want to move forward, to be who I am. You do this for me…you are my strength, you are my love, you are my power, you are my smile and my tears, you are my everything, you are inside me and all around me. You are where I want to be.
Again, I am writing this so you know where I stand, so you know how deep my love for you goes. I never wanted us to fall so completely apart, I only wanted us…to want more for us. I did not hope for less of your love, I desired more of it…I wanted a life together. I wanted you, to want a life with me. There is so much to be lost in the direction we are going, and so much to be gained if we turn back around, and face each other.
So, Here I am. Standing to face you, I am asking you to be present with your heart and feel what we could have. Feel what is possible if we move in a single direction, together. Let’s give up the fight, give up the struggle. Look in your heart…Do you feel like I do? Can we turn this around? Can we work together to make a life that’s sweet and real, a life that we can share? It’s between you and I…two hearts, two lives. It comes down to what you choose and what I choose. Your choice and mine…
I am here, hoping and waiting for you to turn towards me…and say you want this too.
